Confessions of an Egoholic

From the shock of my birth and the fear of my death, I doubt, and collapse from Love, my True Condition as I dramatize betrayal, abandonment, and worthlessness, creating suffering through self-pity and blame.

I blame others and transfer ownership of myself to them.

I create scapegoats and false gods in my rage.

I destroy Love and betray it while accusing others of betraying me.

I create doubt and fear.  When I fear I want security.  When I want security, I empower false gods, tyrants, experts, strategies, and substances to save me.

I am a fundamentalist, a fascist, and a tyrant in an ego cult of one.

I enslave others in my hellish condition of dread.

I abuse others with my self-pity.

I dramatize abandonment and rejection to fuel all my other lesser addictions.

I harm myself and others with my addiction to being a false self, an idea, or a victim/robot who imagines itself to be separate from Love.

I am a cultic worshiper in my exclusive ego-cult of one.

I imprison others by my withdrawal from Love.

I condemn others to the dungeons of my lovelessness.

I betray Life by my withdrawal from Love.

My collapse and withdrawal from Love is sickening and starves all my relations.

I use these conditions to justify accusations of betrayal.

I use others’ failure to love me to justify my own failure.

I betray Love and blame others for it.

I reject love, then dramatize betrayal.

I make others wrong.

I impose my agenda.

I am a recovering ego addict because I notice the obvious Beauty and Love at the Heart of Existence and the way in which I obstruct it.

I am not separate from Life and Love. I am free to be in alignment with Life and Love or not.

I am responsible for the consequences of my alignment or non-alignment with Life and Love. I use my non alignment with Life and Love as an excuse and reason for self-pity.

I am inherently, already unified with what is always already the Case: seamless unity between consciousness and matter, God and self, whole and part.

I am recovering from self-pity and the willingness to tolerate lovelessness in myself.

I am a whirlpool in a River of Light.

I do not withdraw from my Actual Condition as a Whirlpool in this River.

I am a recovering ego addict.

I am responsible For and To Love.

I maintain Heartfelt Intimacy with the Truth of Love, the Core of Reality.

I trust the White-Hot Core of Existence.

I trust Life’s Brilliance.

I am thrilled by the Intensity and Freedom and Love of Life.

Life flows from Love, the Condition of all things.

I am Always, Already one with Life

Life is Love; I am That.

Life is Love.

Love is Truth.

Truth is God.

God is Reality.

Reality is Light.

Light is Love.

I Love Life.

I am responsible for Love.

I am responsible to Love.

My revulsion at my failure to love is the beginning of awakening.

My responsibility for Love is authentic spiritual practice.

I am responsible for my choice of contexts, concepts, and conclusions, including their effects, outcomes and consequences.

I am free to love and to be what I already am, or not.

I am responsible for everything I think, say, and do and their effect, implication, and consequence are my responsibility.

I am responsible for the suffering I create.

I am intrinsically intimate with all beings.

I am a recovering ego addict.